so life has been pretty standard. started volunteering at the day care center type thing on base so i have something for my college applications.
i  feel like theres something wrong with me and i feel paranoid.
i can't put my finger on it exactly but i just feel worried and i think to much and i start to worry about everything. and i feel wrong about almost everything. like right now, i feel whiny, but i can't help it. i appreciate the good things like it being warmer out. and pixie stix at the shopette and being able to download photoshop. and the flowers blooming and invader zim being on nick this evenning and having gone to vienna and franny buying me a sombreroed piggy bank in georgia. and the kids at the day care center. and sleep. and new music. and my guidance counselor. and having an interesting project topic.
but i still feel pretty awful. and i hate it.
and i feel like im just being a teenager, which i hate, because i look at so many and i hate how they act and i never want to be that way.